Below are the 10 most recent journal entries recorded in reverend_mimi's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, January 11th, 2006
1:53 pm	ramblings... You know about Tippy, and how sad I've been about having to do this - the concern being if it was a premature decision. But everyone says it wasn't. Pawpaw is still crying, as am I. We went by the pet cemetery next to the vet's office where she is buried. She will have a headstone and some flowers. she was a great pet and friend. I also went by to see Nana, and she is still with us. I simply can't understand how she is still here. she can't weight 80lbs. She knew me and called me by name. she keeps nodding off, so I didn't stay long. Please light a candle, say a prayer or whatever you do to get in touch with your higher power, to ask for her to be released from this earthly existence. Of course we know it's not done in our time, but in His time. What a great time Pawpaw and I had in Tallahassee visiting with the girls and the family. It was good to be at Italian Pie - we miss that place!!!Take care each of you, and come west sometime. Boy, am I ramblin..... Current Mood: pensive (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 10th, 2006
10:42 pm	Tippy Today was a very sad day, we put our 14 year old poodle, Tippy, to sleep. She was suffering with congestive heart failure, and was really suffering terribly. She will be buried in the pet cemetery in Atmore. She had been such a good companion, she kept me company at seminary, and was so loyal and faithful. I will really miss her. Current Mood: sad (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 19th, 2005
7:41 am	Michael Eight months ago tonight, Michael died. It was a shocke to all of us - even thought we knew his health wasn't good. I miss him with a pain that's indescribable. I took a course at SpringHill COllege that dealt with suffering and the causes of it. There are several thoughts on suffering - from the OT view as seen in the book of Job, i.e. you must have done something very bad for God to bring this misery on you, to the NT view that God understands suffering but doesn't cause it. I go for the NT view. Michael died not because he was being punished for some black, dark sin in his life, but because his heart gave out, because he didn't take care of himself. Granted he had started a health-care plan to get himself back into shape, but it wasn't enough, soon enough. I will see Michael again, as will any of us who believe Jesus was the incarnate Son of God and was resurrected. it's foundational to my faith. If you don't embrace that theology, then I'm at a loss to understand how you get through every day. I'm grateful for the time we had Michael with us, it was a blessing we didn't know until it was gone. but his blessings are still being felt and will be part of all of our lives until we see him again. we will be at the cemetery today with flowers - but it's only a token of our respect for a wonderful son, father, husband and friend. I love you Michael, and miss you as only a mother can miss a child. Mom Current Mood: sad (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 6th, 2005
6:24 pm	Nana Today I visited with nana and the end is near - she has stopped eating, her kidneys are shutting down and she is disoriented. The nurses feel she won't last through Mother's Day - but we have to remember this is God's time, not ours. I sat in her room and reminisced about the wonderful years we have had - she has been a good mother, putting up with kids, grandkids and great-grandkids. I remember telling her when Jeremy ws born she was a great-grandmother, and her response was "I've always been a great grandmother!"how true, how true!and she has always been a great anything she has put her mind to. So, I begin to mourn the loss of a great woman, a committed Christian and a wonderful human being. Soon she will be with my Dad, her first grandson Michael, and her firstborn son - Robert Daniel Crow, Jr., born October 25, 1952. But we will not be sad for her, it's time. and while we will all surely miss her, her legacy will live on in us. We will be happy she is finally at peace, with no pain and a clear mind. That beautiful smile will light up heaven and those flashing brown eyes will make the stars pale in comparison. Praise God from whom all blessings flow - and they have certainly flowed from the life of this wonderful woman, mother, wife, friend, grandmother and great-grandmother. I thank God for the life she gave me, for the unconditional love she poured out on me, and for the continued forgiveness she extended to me through the many years of pain and anguish I gave to her. Those who never knew her missed a blessing - and she will always be remembered as our Nana, our Mom. We love you. Current Mood: peaceful (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 30th, 2005
9:41 am	grief I posted a comment to my last entry, which should have been put here. Oh well, I'm more technologically challenged than I realized!. However, if you are interested in that comment, you'll have to check out the comments. The gist of it is how racked with grief I have been these last few days. I'm almost unconsolable, perhaps just repressed grief that has never had an opportunity to be dealth with. I guess what brought it bear so much so was on Thursday I visited a young man in the Brewton Jail who murdered his six month old son on February 22, 2005. This family are members of my parish, and one of the hardest thing I ever had to do was comfort the mother of Elias - a young lady who had lost her husband, friend and father of her child in one horrific act.for a few moments it was re-living October 19-22 all over again. We had a beautiful memorial service for Elias, but it did little to east the pain and relief the grief. My prayer is she will continue to move forward with her life. Yet, when I visited Chris, I was amazed I had no feelings of revulsion, animosity, anger or fear. what i saw before me was a young man who life is under the control of others. there was a sadness about him that was palpable. Scenes from "Dead Man Walking" permeated my mind, and I was so amazed at the peace I felt during the almost hour I visited with him. I will visit him again. he is remorseful and has asked for me and the members of Trinity Church to forgive him. CAn I, can we? Of course we can and have. I ramble, I digress...please forgive!!!all to say I miss Michael more rather than less - and I pray for peace in my heart - that the pain will at some point subside. And Jennifer if you read this, please don't misunderstand my pain and grief for lack of faith - it's just a mother's way of expressing the incredible feeling of loss and emptiness. You know how much I love and need each of you now, especially facing the inevitable with Nana. Boy, am I rambling - maybe I should stop now. Mimi Current Mood: sad (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
10:27 pm	6 month's today Exactly six months ago today, October 19th, my precious Michael went to be his Lord. It was just about this time, 10:15p.m. that I walked into the emergerncy room at Thomas Hospital and Lori told me he was gone, that they couldn't save him. I went to my knees in shock and only a little of that has worn off. He was an exceptional person, and I miss him terribly. On saturyday we dedicated the beautiful marker that has been put on his grave. I know he isn't there, but it's still a sweet reminder of what a dear person he was and how many lives he touched, and the legacy he left behind namely Jeremy, Jennifer, Jessica, Robert & Riley. I am still in awe of how much he did in such a short time, and how many people he touched and showed such compassion and caring. I know that when he met Jesus, the words that reached his ears were: "Well done, my good and faithful servant." Oh that those words will be greeting us one day! I believe in the resurrection of Jesus Christ, which gives us the promise of life over death, because of his triumph over the grave. If I didn't have that assurance, I couldn't face the day. and because of that assurance I know I will see my sweet son again. How anyone gets through the day without this assurance is absolutely beyond me! I pray for anyone who doesn't have this, that one day you'll find it. Ah, such peace you will have. Jeremy is here with me tonight and we have looked at some awesome pics of the marker, maybe he'll do his magic and hook them up to the computer. Ask him real nice, okay? My peace and blessing I send to each of you. PAX, Rev. Mimi Current Mood: sad (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 16th, 2005
7:23 am	life Godd Morning Everyone: today is Saturday, april 16th. a beautiful days in Atmore, Alabama. I just read a wonderful column by Kristen Campbell, religion editor for Mobile Register in which she reminded us that in the overload of info about the death of POpe John and the continued overload regarding the election fo a new pope, we must not forget about the "filler," those things which give life its rhythm: peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, going to work, paying bills, lunching with friends, etc. what a wonderful thought! this weekend will be a bittersweet time for this family - we will gather at Fairhope Memory Gardens to dedicate and bless the marker for my son's grave - as well as dedicate a sound stage made by him for the Legion post in Fairhope. most of the family will be present, some couldn't make it because of prior commitments, however, we will do our best to carry out this service, knowing they would have been here if at all possible. i saw the marker for the first time on Friday, and it was a very emotional time - the tears came in a flood and it was very painful. but God is good and everpresent and ever-comforting! I'll talk about it again later. God's peace and blessing!!!! Current Mood: contemplative (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 12th, 2005
7:55 am	suffering I spent yesterday visiting with my mother (nana) who had just returned from an outpatient procedure to help with her chronic depression (she is 89). I was terribly upset to see her suffering. I subsequently got into a deep theological discussion with a priest friend about suffering: is there value in suffering? does it bring us closer to God? Is suffering necessary for deepening one's spiritual journey and experience (check with 16th century mystics and their answer is "yes") However, when I see my mother suffering so, I feel at odds with this concept. and I sometimes find it hard to preach about "peace that passes all understanding" when I know how my mother is suffering. My conflict also comes when I try to understand why she hasn't found that peace. Anyone care to step out on this? Current Mood: cynical (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, February 11th, 2005
8:07 am	anniversary Morning: today is my 42nd wedding anniversary to the same man!!!!! Current Mood: happy (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 10th, 2005
7:43 am	Morning to everyone - this is my first entry so bear with me! for me it's Lent and it's a special time for us - I'm excited about being on this live journal thing and I hope you will all write lots and often. Peace. Current Mood: contemplative (2 Comments |Comment on this)